i’m still waiting for my Mr Simple ver A and ver B cds and it feels like ages already!! i checked my facebook and the person said that she’ll post the cds next week… owh.. now, i’ve to wait for another week… i ordered super junior’s poster-in-tube too but it is already out of stock!! NO!!! wait, i told her to send the cds to my university but next week will be my semester break.. Great, another three weeks of waiting.. just great…
i woke up this morning feeling miserable… i think i did horribly for my first three papers. i often tell myself that i need to change. i should stop procrastinate and concentrate on my studies. but here i am, writing a blog. hmm… i’m scared of many things.. what would happen if my grades drop? i’ve been on top for a while and i just have this feeling that there’ll a time when i… may not get good grades anymore. i really really hope that my feeling is not true. i’ll feel embarassment (which i totally d0) and of course, fail my parents’ hope and wish. i dream of being the daughter that they can be proud of and i manage to be so far… but with the exam this time, i don’t know if i still have the chance to make them happy. it sucks… it really sucks… if i could turn the time back, i should spend more time on studying. maybe often getting good grades led to this thing. i felt secure and believed that i would still be on top but now, it shattered. i’m not strong enough to face failure…
